The Season of Broken Hearts and Warm Ass Weather

Oh wow. About 3 months since I've last updizzled. Holly fail to the max, ya'll.

What's been happening...

-Been doing a lot at Toast...but been feeling neglected and less like part of a team. Bad.
-Been super poor. Also bad.
-Been dumped. Very bad.
-Been deprived of internet in my house. Super bad.
-Been feeling super sorry for myself and not knowing what to do with my life. UBER BAD.

But do not fear, good people! The weather is warm and I love Bristol and that's given me the motivation to sort myself out. I've got lovely friends and a wicked awesome mother who has passed down some amazing "I don't give a fuck" genes ;D I've allowed myself a week to feel sorry for myself and now it's time to buckle down and figure out what I want to do with my shiny new visa.

Shall I move off to London or Birmingham and be a proper fashiony drone oooooor stay in Bristol and enjoy being fancy can carefree and attempt to start a business with some carefully selected friends?! I may have to choose the former instead of the latter because I gots bills to pay!

Oh my, it does seem that the majority of my friends have been having the same problems as me though. Heartbreak, general confusion about life, being poor. Damn. Post uni life isn't that amazing though is it?

Alas, it's spring and I'm doing my own personal spring cleaning go get all them cobwebs out of my self conscious and all up out of my life. I've been sending out loads of CVs for a nice new pattern cutting job and I've already got a call back from a recruitment agency saying they're going to forward my CV to the company. Fingers crossed!!

A word of advice to my readers and friends - Shit gets real and ugly, but only the weak don't get used to it!! DEAL.

Time to be fearless and fancy free. ;D

Voice of Reason.

Call my mother today to ask her opinion on what I should choose:

great company that treats me extremely well
low paying career
basically no social life
leaving all my friends
leaving a place I finally call home
move to a city I'm not too fond of
become single again
be super lonely and scared in a new place

OR

continue to intern
continue to have work placement pay for my travel
gain valuable experience
have social life
have all my friends
work on portfolio to further my career in a higher paying job
still have a lovely boyfriend (at least I hope so)
stay in a city I love

After many tears and loads of thinking (and complaining), My mom said she couldn't tell me what to do and that she'd pray that the right answer will come along soon. I got off the phone with her thinking that I won't know for ages and ages, but after having chats with my Hippodrome work colleagues, I've got a general answer for what I should do.

"Holly, don't go to Swansea," said Andy today at work. Now Andy has always been absolutely lovely to me, such a lovely father figure in my life here in Bristol since he started working at the Hippodrome. After explaining to him what my options were, he thought all day about it and flat out told me not to take the job. He said to continue to intern and it makes sense. It's a win/win situation, really. The company saves money, I continue to slowly make money, I get to live in Bristol and I get experience all the same. I really needed someone like him to tell me what he thought would be the right decision and I'm super grateful that he took the time to think about my situation.

Who knows, that may be my mom's prayer and my questions answered, ey? Thank you Andy.

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(and thank you to everyone else who took the time to listen to me whinge about it and tell me not to leave!) xx

Start of another week!

Happy Monday, ya'll.

Today was quite productive! I got a job this morning at yet another local cafe up the road! The lady made me make a cappuccino just to see if I could do it properly. Ohoho - I've been making coffees for too long. Part of me wants to go back to the easiness of Starbucks but most of me doesn't. Lawl. I bumped into the famous cupcake-making Rosy today at uni! It was lovely chatting with her cos I haven't seen her since I quit the 'bucks which means I haven't seen her aaaaaaaaaall summer. :) I'm glad we're on the same campus!

I ended up socializing most of the morning to be honest. Socializing is a very important part of Monday morning! ...well every morning, really, but epesh today cos it really got me in the mood to do work. Up the library I went again. I claimed a table and sat with magazines and books and just perused for hours with the random-ass sun darkening my already dark-ass neck. Why was the sun out today? Why was it such a nice day out? I swear this country is just just confused in the weather department, man. Last week it was cold and rainy and today was a completely different experience!!
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But it was nice to go out without a cardi :)

I got a brilliant book out of the library today! Just a few hundred pages with naked and clothed peeps in these different poses at all angles. Freakin' brilliant. Some of the pages are just inappropriately funny. Like the "Vicar blessing girl"...


Just LOOK! I know you can see it. And with that, I'll leave you. x

End of the week!

Whew! I managed to send in a job application 10 minutes before the closing time. Woop woop! Fingers crossed! And on that noteTGIF, yo. Oo...I should go eat there. It's been a while. Mmm T.G.I.Fridays *nod*

Anyway! End of the week - how nice! I had my meeting this morning and it was quite successful. All I need now is responses...Good things come to those who wait! I started my "sketchbook" on InDesign today. I even got a book out on how to use the software properly. I felt like such a nerd in the Epi Centre, but by golly it was fun! I've only got so many pictures, but it'll come together! It's a good money saving tactic, methinks :) £7 for one 30-page empty sketchbook or £7 for 47-page filled sketchbook. Ooo! Bargain!

Stace and I (well more Stacey, to be honest) cleaned the kitchen downstairs and now its all clean! Yay! It's so much nicer to do work when you know all is well in the kitchen and all the recycling is sorted (thanks Stacey!). Oh and it's also nice when you make brownies too. Mmmm brownies with lots of squirty cream...they were nice. x